what is this force that is driving me? where did it come from, where did it originate? and how long have i got?
please stay, stay as long as it is possible, i need it, i need it so much. with this new strange internal energy i am so eager to start working, to keep going, to ignore doubts crawling from the back of my mind; something is happening, something is thawing and starting its course.
please let me have it for this month. please please please.